braincell soup

In most cases when depression begins battering at the walls of your sanity one can usually have some sort of idea where the monster is coming from, which makes fighting it back a little easier. If there is a scale for depression then I would think that kind is pretty well near the top.

However there is a type of depression that has no boundaries, has no direction. It seems to roll in like some dense fog and seep into every part of your being.Physically you feel totally drained with no desire to do anything beyond those things necessary for life – like breathing. Mentally it attaches itself to every neuron and synapse sucking the very energy like some kind of vampire.

It is this kind of depression that has no defined beginning or no borders of where it ends removing any chance of at least being able to crawl in that direction to break through.

During this time everything piles up, you can never seem to get a handle on where to start the things you know need to get done. The pile grows higher and more formidable creating its own cumulative effect on your depression. Right now I am so far behind in things that need to get done that even the slightest effort to start is tinged with a sense of failure.

I know that just as quickly as this wave of depression has swept over my life it will recede it is just a matter of trying to believe there is a top up there somewhere. In the meantime I look to my music and my loving wife, who shares her hugs at the drop of a hat, to make sure I don’t start seeing the bottom.

Depression.

It sucks.

Especially when things are for the most part going really well.

That doesn’t stop it from seeping in through the edges of your days.

It sucks

Depression.

Dis iz as far owt of bed Ai wantz to get todai.

sumtiemz u jus gotta do it in stagez.

Dis iz as far owt of bed
Cheezburger Network
Fri, 10 Jul 2009 10:00:07 GMT

More bloggers than you can shake a stick write principally about the areas that interest them and the news that happens in those areas. It can be about politics, technology or just about anything that has the potential to bring in readers in a regular basis.

On the other hand just as many of those self-same bloggers like to have a space that allows them to write about more of the their personal trials, tribulations and good things that happen in their lives outside of their “work” blogs. When I first registered the Braincell Soup domain I didn’t really have any idea of what I would use it for but over the last few months of posting artwork & photographs that meant something to me I realized why I had kept the domain.

In effect, even thought it wasn’t the intention, this blog has become my personal space. My space to just ramble, opinionate about things in general, and yes to post art that I find interesting.

I don’t expect a great reader response to what is here and really it it doesn’t matter ‘cause this is just going to be my quiet little corner of the web. However if you do find it worth checking to see what is being said or displayed then that is great as well.

This I think is the very best quote I have read to date when it comes to describing the experience of seeing Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen and it comes to us from Brandon Lee Tenney at FirstShowing.net

And seeing a Michael Bay film in IMAX is, for me, just about equivalent to slamming a gram and a half of cut crystal straight into my median cubital. It’s a cinematic rush.

slam on ….